So, yeah. I’m in college, but I still have never had a boyfriend. (Single since birth …)
Yup, not even in high school. I’ve never even been on a date. I don’t think I’ve come close to even being asked out. And now, a bunch of my friends that were in the same boat as me have entered their first relationship.
I’ve never been the type to need a guy in my life in order to feel good about myself; however, now even my cousin as found her first boyfriend. My cousin whom I’ve been extremely close with. I thought that we were both waiting to finish school and become successful in our careers until we would enter relationships. But apparently not and it’s all hitting me now.
I mean, I still don’t feel like a need a guy to feel good and confident but now I am wondering why I haven’t had a boyfriend. Like, is something wrong with me?
I will admit, I don’t consider myself attractive. I’m not skinny. I don’t have perfect skin. I’m not stylish. But I think I’m a good person. I’m nice. I’m smart. I’m considerate. I’m caring. I’m a fun person.
I really hope that I will be able to find a guy that likes me for me; someone who can recognize my great, interesting personality and overlook my lack of physical attractiveness.
Sadly, I’m beginning to lose hope that I will find someone to love and love me back. I am planning on working out and going on a diet this summer to get fit and look good. I feel like I shouldn’t have to change myself and my lifestyle for a guy, but I feel like I need to in order to appear or get recognized as desirable.
Also known as Hell Week.
It’s fucking painful.
I’m gonna fucking party it up right when I finish my last exam. (SUMMER IS SERIOUSLY RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER!)
But for now, I’m gonna let it burn.
So pumped for the summer. I wanna be home in Cali, soakin up some sun. Livin life to the fullest. FUCK YES.
But I still have a school.
Just a few weeks left!
Got push through, we can do this!!!
Just keep listening to ONE DIRECTION! YESSSSSS! Lol.